genuinebeautyxo's Journal

First Entry!
Hello everyone! This is my first entry. I hope to make some friends on here. =) I've looked at a few journals out there, but haven't really made any friends.

I guess I should tell you a little bit about myself. Even though I am 20 years old, I graduated recently. I've graduated late because of medical problems mostly. There were quite a few reasons for it.

When I was in the 7th grade, I skipped school a lot, practically the whole year, but it was understandable. I was very depressed, I wanted to commit suicide, I didn't have any friends, I was made fun of a lot, I had a lot of low self esteem issues, more then I do now, and the list goes on and on.

I wasn't completely happy with the graduation. I enjoy spending time with the people that were there for my. My Mom was there for me, my two brothers. It was disappointing my third one didn't show up because he's so stubborn! We haven't heard from him for the longest time. =( It's all very sad what he's going through, but it makes me and my Mom a bit angry at the same time. It's a frustrating situation.

Anyway, a couple that is praying over me and my future husband came. Now that I think about it, they really should. I invited the people that have stayed in touch with me. I invited one other girl who's almost 20 years older then me. She doesn't look that way. It's kind of funny. We went to church together like a year ago. My Mom and I found a different church at the same place (the old one moved out), and met her there again. This time we got a closer relationship.

I wasn't very happy with the some of the speakers there. They had this one speaker, and all he did was make political jokes! I know he has this big job and all, but that wasn't right! The graduate students nor the audience was very happy about it. People wanted to complain. One of the students rudely interrupted saying a little louder, but not completely yelling, "Is it our turn yet?" Another guy behind us said, "Fuck off!" And the girl retaliated, "Shut up!" It was interesting.

The second thing I didn't like about it was this 40 year old guy. You know, I don't mind talking to people who are older then me, especially if it's in God's hand. However, this one wasn't. My Mom knew what was happening right away, and appearantly everyone else that was there for me. I tend to be oblivious about these things sometimes. ^^; I thought he was being nice, but then he started to get a little too attatched to me. He followed me up the stairs when we lined up. During the ceremony, he looked at me a few times. -_- At the end, he asked if he could give me his number, and hang out over the summer! What is a 40 year old guy doing asking a girl for his number and hanging out with him!? He told me he has a daughter! Who knows how old she is!? She's old enought to have boyfriends appearantly. If I were the daughter of the father, I'd be TICKED off at him for doing that to a girl my age!

I walk around because I have to take the bus to different places because I am finding a job. It's taking forever. *sighs* I'm a little intimidated when it comes to finding a job and I'm trying to get over it. Anyway, guys that are his age honk at me! It makes me so mad! When younger guys do that, or guys that are around my age honk at me, I don't care! It's what they're supposed to do! Guys who are 30 that honk at girls 10 years or so younger then them need to realize YOU ARE NOT 16 ANYMORE YOU PERVERTED LITTLE FREAK! Yeah, it really upsets me!

I was going to talk about chapter 127 of Furuba in this next journal, but I guess I won't because this is long. Well, there's my first entry for now.

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